READY?

Tomorrow.....I become a mommy.

I have given up on going into labor naturally. I really wanted to experience going into labor naturally at home, and all that goes along with it....but, unless some miracle causes that to happen today or tonight......We are headed to the hospital in the morning.....and we have to be there at 6am. So, I am seeing little sleep for me tonight. Especially since I didn't get up until noon today, and daylight savings time started last night and we got an extra hour anyway!!!

Bags are packed (well, Ryder's bag, and my bag....), Eric's cleaning the Yukon inside/out today, getting the car seat in there, and everything seems to be "ready" to go for when we come back home. My parents have gotten all the details and they call and check on me every other day at least. I know Eric wishes he had family closer to be here with him during this exciting time in his life. I have so much family here.....and nothing at all against his family!!! I know it can't be helped!!! And I know they wish the same thing :)......but, I know after Ryder arrives tomorrow, he wishes he had family to show him off to. I can't wait to see how excited and proud he is of his son.

This is such a surreal feeling. Knowing that I am going to have a baby tomorrow. Knowing my life will never be the same. I am so scared! But also, very excited, and blessed.

I am worried about how tomorrow will go....how bad it will hurt....how Eric will do through it all....how good of a mother I will be.....how good of a baby Ryder will be....that he will start growing up the day he is born.....just worried.

I am excited that I get to hold MY baby boy in my arms tomorrow....that I will get to kiss him and feed him and love him....that Eric gets to be a daddy to a baby boy, and he gets to experience the birth of his child and the love that comes with it.....that my dad gets to become a grandpa tomorrow....just excited.

So many emotions today, and no real way to express them. I already told Eric there would be lots of crying tomorrow. He laughed and said "yea, I know" lol

Wish us luck!